Did you ever wish that your life took a different course of events? like.. am I really where I'm supposed to be right now? Something is nagging at me and telling me that I'm not. Every chemistry major I've ever met is SO INTO science and knows precisely what they want to do after graduation and has their life all planned out, and I'm just not and I can't force myself to be either. A lot of my interests lie outside of science, like I love photography however cliche that sounds and I love fashion, however unbelievable that may sound. I love advertisement and I also love philosophy. I just love all forms of art in general including writing. In short I'm thinking that chemistry isn't really where I'm supposed to be, I'm not meant to work in a lab all my life. I'm not going to discover the next medicine you're going to see on your shelves. That's just not me. Sometimes I wish that it was and other times I'm happy with what I am and what I'm interested in. I also thought i wanted to be a lawyer but now I don't think I'm feelin' that either. I just don't know what to do. I wish I wasn't three years into this already. I wish I didn't declare a major right off the bat. I'm just asking for a do-over.
On top of that, my back is regressing to where it was in October. If it gets to there I'm going to die, seriously. I won't be able to handle it for another semester. I scraped through last semester on my knees, I still got good grades though, god knows how. I'll probably be looking at surgery if this doesn't get better and I LITERALLY can't handle that. I dont have 5 weeks of recovery time, nor do i want a gaping hole cut into my back and a piece of my spine removed.
Again, I'm asking for a do-over.
- Jenmurda. xxx.
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