You caught me off guard..

Now i'm running and screaming. etc. etc.
I'm so bored and I'm thinking about my life. I've figured out that when I want something really really bad, when it finally comes my way or kind of comes my way I push it away. I've done it recently and it was a horrible move, but what else is new. haha. I just saw a commercial that said almost giving is the same as not giving at all. I think that pretty much sums up my current situation.
Charleton Heston died today? or last night? I just found that out now. That's weird. I liked him, he was an alright dude. He was in the ten commandments movie which i have a strange liking for. If I wasn't straightedge I'd pour out a 40 for Charlie. Hell maybe I'll do it anyway. Like the time I was at the chinese restaurant and the dude bought 7 forties. I should have just asked him for one. However he was a drug dealer so that probably would have ended badly.
I'm in such a weird mood right now. I'm busting out witty statements left and right. It's kind of ridiculous.
Everyone I asked to hang out today told me no. It was weird so I went out by myself. Just to get some taco bell. I really wanted ritas but I guess that'll have to wait until sometime during the week. Actually probably tomorrow.
I love college basketball so much.
My mind is all over the place.
It's 11:33 on a Sunday night and I'm watching Two and a Half Men on FOX.
My aunt Florence isn't doing well at all. My nana's been here all weekend to go see her. My Uncle Larry is also a mess, he has cancer too and is in the hospital as well. So everyone's kind of freaking out. Cancer makes me really nervous. I think it's why I want to go into biochem so I can do drug research and who even knows, maybe come up with a cure for cancer. That would be crazy. I would love to do that. I doubt it'll happen, but one can dream. At least I've developed some direction in my life since I posted in here a couple weeks ago. I want to get my phD in Biochem and possibly pharmacology. I think that'll the best for me.
I think that's all I'm going to write for now. I'm getting tired.

-- Jenmurda.